heart strings

Heart strings being the strongest tendons that holds the heart. Tried it once during Biology class, inspecting a cow's heart,using just my fingers to lift up its heart through these heart strings. Is that strong.

well, no matter how strong these tendons are, human are bound to breakdown.
Putting up an upfront,wearing a mask for so long.
So that everyone will assume they are content and happy.
Ego can really destroy a person.
Showing emotions was a no-no for an egoistic person as its a sign of weakness.

Whenever a problem rise, instead of finding solutions for it, running away was an easier option.
Got to say having atleast 10 pages of my passport being in colourful stamps is quite impressive to me
and an addiction, like stamp collection when you are younger.

Coming back home was a mistake for me. Knowing so many things had changed in three months,imagine the huge shock. From knowing my uncle had recently passed away, two days after I had arrived home and obviously I couldn't attend his funeral because its all the way in Hong Kong, while most of my relatives are there, here, I am. From that to feeling I am losing my childhood friend to his girlfriend. I mean I am happy for him, but sometimes hanging out with old buddies won't kill you,you know. From knowing I wouldn't see my best friend for quite sometime because we're just in different countries right now.

Its funny how I feel more lonely in my home country than I do in overseas. How I feel like I don't belong here, the place I was born. I used to heart KL to death, now I dislike it so much.  With Heathrow Airport being a chaos right now, how I wish I could catch the next flight back to the land of tea and scones. Another week in Malaysia is like being in hell.

The biggest weakling of all is definitely the person with the biggest ego.
Never had I cried from 2am till 6am.
Looking at the mirror, puffy eyes, red nose.
The amount of toughness is finally out.
Not so tough after all,eh?


xxx

When the city meets the sea

Tomorrow would be the LAST day of COLLEGE!
Next week till mid-June would be finals! It's a serious business because if we screwed up Alevels,we're screwed up for life. sigh.
Tomorrow would be de day guys suit up and girls dress up.wink.wink.
BEWARE: camwhoring session would be massive tomorrow.

Gosh, 1.5 years had just passed like that.
No doubt I will miss college.
It had been by far the best journey I had ever been through.
Best college in the whole wide world.chuckles.
Friends and acquaintances that I had met and befriended, truly cherish them. Though, my guy friends always outnumbered my gal pals,which I lack of. Pretty scary but I had came to this point of conclusion, just can't click with girls. Boys=less drama. girls= alot of backstabbing + drama. chuckles.

Pretty emotional right now,
everyone is heading to every continent in this world,
can you imagine the amount of tears and sappy session?
and of course, the amount of trips to KLIA.

On random note - I had been seeing accidents lately and recently my ABS malfunctioned. and I have YET to send it to repair cause I need the car to go from point A to point B. Driving slow is definitely not my thing and because of this problem, I had to drive at 60km/hr from my usual speed. and goodness, that only lasted a day and today was just the usual speed of mine and somehow I don't seem to learn my lesson. Nearly had a collision with a Pajero and a Camry and thats because both these ding dongs wanna cut into my lane without signaling at the same time! and was driving under the rain in the evening, and I dislike cars who mind-screwed me. The wira in front of me, out of nowhere brakes when theres plenty of space in front his or her car. I had to slam jammed my brake and my ABS wasn't working and the tyres squeaked. hahahahah.

When the world is on your shoulder

Through observation, Asian parents have a very high expectation towards their children especially when it comes to grades! Academic achievement isn't everything if they haven't realised. Am personally thankful for my parents who's not so-traditional.

Well, I had been worried about my Trial's results letter arriving to my house, thought of intercepting it but failed. Mom got it before I did. Funny thing is; she is not confronting me about my owh so "awesome" results. According to my psychology mate, he thinks my parents wants me to come clean with them instead of them approaching me. Gah, why am I supposed to say to them? Oh, I nap too much >.< cause I screwed my sleeping hours pretty good? Had been playing a fool and not studying? I hate being observed yet I still like my guilty pleasure of observing. chuckles.

Could tell mommeh and pappi are disappointed. Am frustrated at one point, I worked hard for my Chemistry, well not that hard but it was THE ONLY subject I studied for Trials and yet its scored is the lowest among other subjects which I barely touch ze books. Chemistry and I don't go so well,apparently. NONO, I didn't have time to do my application section!and that had brought me down so badly and of course, Organic chemistry which I can't never get it stuck in my brain! its like smartTAG,without barrier..it will just speed of ze brain cells, and I thought Maths and I had a bad chemistry. I do like Maths in Alevels,surprisingly! >.< but had dropped it since. why? because my Maths Lecturer is being a catalyst to "make-Jo Ey-hates-maths" and because of my classmates drilling me day and night and being a typical chinese (kiasu) I so wanted to prove My Maths lecturer he was wrong!Hah! By God's grace, I did proved him wrong when my AS results came out. BY FAR, I think he is the most demotivating lecturer ever. I miss Ms. J who left because of her pregnancy>.< She made me love Maths when I hated it to the core back in Form5 then came this oh-so-racist-bias Lecturer. Gosh, I'm b*tching.
But, I wasn't the ONLY one who dislike him, practically more than half of the class dislike him and some of us couldn't stand him and drop the subject in A2 because we can't change lecturer. URGH!

If maths can be as delightful as chocolates <3

ok enough about b*tching about him, bad chi.
Anyway, skipped college today. Only went for Psychology class and thats it.
It was ze last Psychology class. sobs.
He is the one of the best lecturer around.
He doesn't pressure us to study, he allowed us to go our own pace.
He is always so understanding (because I'm always late for his class, fyi Psycho is always the first period and since I have to drive now to college -.- if I missed the 7am alarm clock, I will sleep till 9am .chuckles. This is cause I dislike being stuck in a jam)
He is very motivated in motivating his students.
He craps alot of joke in class which of course,related to ze syllabus.
Sex is a must topic for him every lesson. chuckles.
Lessons are never boring, theres always video and photos to see for every chapter (:


Then theres my Chemistry lecturer and mentor.
She's by far the Most Professional Lecturer I had ever seen.
I may had been a b*tch to her for giving her such a hard time during AS as I wasn't used to her teaching style,but sooner I got adapted to it.
She was very patient with me although I gave her hell.
Though my trials doesn't justify my effort in it but its my Favourite subject and I work hard just need to work HARDER.


College is coming to an end in less than 2 weeks time and so is finals! Another chapter in life, another chapter begins with unexpected obstacles and surprises. Its scary! I already rejected two offers to two universities. one, being financial aid and another because I applied for fun never expecting anything from it. I really want a gap year, but my parents are being very irrational about this. But to an extent, they have their reasons, I am gonna use their moolah to travel and explore the world. Their hard earn money. Thus, my aunt jokingly said this to my dad "You're always so busy with your work, so your daughter help you to 'travel' ".

Rottnest Island, Perth. <3

where I learnt how to cycle.chuckles.

Pretty hype up with all the trips I mah going after finals!
As quoted from my coursemate, Nic " Doesn't matter when A2 starts but it matters when A2 ends!"

Roadtrip with ze dear of mine in an awesome car! (:  He FINALLY gonna trust me with his car.promise, I won't crash it..hopefully. If not need to sell my car, bags,shoes,gadgets,clothes etc just to fix prolly an inch of his car. GASP.

Gosh, I have such a scattered brain, my topic had diverted completely.sigh.

Anyhowever, the usual trio skipped the rest of the day of college and went to Curve for Breakfast. Guess what????!?!? We ended up at Coffee Bean, which I dislike very much. I mean, these two boys can be so indecisive of what to eat and I can't decide cause I was so hungry and having gastric.chuckles..we could have had it in college, since theres one CB located barely 100m away from college.

After breakfast, went to Border's/Starbucks where they studied Bio while I was reading news. Gosh, its so quiet there =x its way better than the Starbucks in JayaOne where I used to nerd.

So, my dear lil bro was really worried about uni application cause his parents had been pestering him about it. Tried cheering him up but ended up being teased by him.  Its so strange, he's a year younger than me but his maturity level surpassed a 21 years old guy.

We had this random conversation about something which I couldn't recall
and he called me a "Virgin Mind". It was something he said that was dirty but I didn't get what he meant.
Gosh, clearly being 19th has its own effect!
 The conversation go on something like this

FR : I bet my younger brother who is 13 is more intelligent than you.
JY: Are you saying I am dumb? -.-
FR : Sexually. *Grin*

Aight, better get back to do something studying.
Owh, on random note - John Mayer Battle studies album is awesome possum (:

If macky crashes, would be so dead for finals. I-need-it-to-nerd-cause-all-mah-notes-are-inside-save-the-environment-paperless is the way!-and-of course-addiction-to-faceboook-which-needs-to-be-out-of-my-system!


I haven't been shopping since Feb! *big gasp*
My hands are very itchy!
Its not helping, most of my friends are dragging me away from buying and shopping.
I was dragged away from entering MNG today by FR. deng it! boys they will never understand the torture of not buying! meh such a spendthrift gal -.-

My shopping list (which need to be done after finals ) :

• Lomo camera. lomography  is so candid perfect <3
• 500D because the price had dropped! FINALLY!
• update ze macbook or get a new macbook pro! its dashing sexay ;) (omgee, my macbook was smashed on the floor when I emergency brake today, macky was sitting nicely on the passenger seat and minutes later its on the floor of the car*gasp* dislike people who drive on right lane and drive so slow and doesn't wanna go to the left lane then out of no where brake.pffft)
• Bose headphones. 
• Coach summer collection bags!!!! Looks so good on a beach  okay! Missing Aust beaches like omgee=( 

See what I meant by spendthrift!!! but blame the world for making us so superficial =x

When I'm Lost, You Found me

After weeks of depressing,
After days of tossing here and there,
After hours of thinking,
After minutes of coming out with possibilities,
After seconds of making decisions,
Woke up this morning,
I felt like my prayer had finally been answered. *grin*
Finally, I made THE decision that I felt at peace with.
Guess, I'm not lost/unsure after all.
Can't wait to finish and graduate A-levels.

Happy Easter,everyone. =)


<3

Reasons

You like/liked me for the wrong reasons,
You don't freaking appreciate me,
Stop bragging to your friends;
when I am hardly in your grips,
You don't even show like you care about me,
The lil things I asked you to do,
You came up with reasons not to do it.

Its amazing how your friends kept telling me
how nice you are and am very lucky to have you fallen for me,
when I find you the end of the spectrum!

Yes, Psychology taught me not to make a decision when you're emotional/angry/whatsoever.
screw it.
Bet I will laughed at this one day. =)

Worried

Trials gonna start on TUESDAY!
and I am sleeping more than 10hours like a baby =.=
Just found out coffee is like weed. Not like I tried weed before, but
the feeling is sooo stoned.
Imagine having a Venti Vanilla Latte at night
and then another round of Black Coffee in the morning and head off to college.
Your brain is very much stoned!!!!
Shouldn't have went to college last Friday,
practically wasted my time listening to Lectures that I don't need it.
and slept a whole deal after college! =)
Had an awesome possum lunch with Mr.G at Jaya One.
At first, it was Royal Selangor Club then that fella dress up so casual,
thus planned cancelled.
And surprisingly, I didn't have any craving and man,they just can't decide what to eat.
The girls have to do the all the decision making -.-

Anywho, been having terrible headaches for 3 consecutive days!
Panadols didn't help either =(
Thinking of going for a MRI scan.
and ding dong, Mr.G said this " why do you even need it? If you go for it, for sure they will say,there's no brain to scan"
Omgee, ultimate lameness.YET I still laughed at it -.-

On another random,
what happens when the line between best friends get blurred?
Will the friendship gets weird out?
hmm.....I beg to differ.

Swiss chocolates!!!<3

p/s: my lil sis flicked four of it before I can even take my camera -.-

Another random note- I kinda thankful for the family members I have =)

They never fail to surprise me. 

After much sleep deprivation and the whole trials, uni worrisome 

coming home and seeing my fridge filled with chocolates again =D

Thank You Aunt K and Uncle D. 

<3 <3 <3

I like the fact, the view outside of my room never fail to surprise me =)

If you look closely, MV on the far right.

Not For Minors

College had been really weird these few days.
Who would have thought that Lesbian stuff can happen in Co-ed too?
well, coming from an all girls school, its not a big hoo haa for me but am very traumatised.

It all started in Chemistry class,
(perhaps you were expecting it from Biology class)
it was during chemistry lesson on Monday,

M turns behind to a row of  tables  behind her and stare at us with her sexy stares.

Miss M : "A, I will open my legs wide for you "
MIss A  : Awwww.....
Miss J   : *horrified* o.O

Tuesday came ;
After college is over,

Miss M  told this to Mr. A
" Oh,I will have fun with Miss J during Chemistry workshop"

Miss J told Mr. A
" Yeah, we will have an awesome threesome together"

Mr. A got terrified and ran away.

Miss J and Miss M burst out laughing hysterically.

During chemistry workshop ;

Miss M accidentally footsie Miss J.
Miss J was traumatised,indeed. She felt violated! LOL
Thus end the study date.
Sadly, it wasn't "threesome"
Mr. N was their tutor.
However, 30minutes later,Mr. X and Mr.C came along because their tutee were MIA.
An hour later,Mr.R came along to disturb us,
Miss  J was observing random behaviours among them,
she figured out why Mr.N wasn't feeling cold in the library,
because she thought he wore 2 layers of shirt but alas it was just the design of that shirt itself.
Mr R then came up with this question to Miss J
"Is Mr.N hot to you?"
Miss J burst out laughing and can't say anything.
Mr.X and Mr.R started bullying Miss J and Miss M had fun laughing.
Mr.C went off to teach Miss L maths.

Mr. X and Mr.R : Just say he's hot la, don't have to check his shirt out.
Miss J : *stunned**recovering from laughters*
Mr. X and Mr. R : If you said he's not hot, you're bruising his ego.
Mr.N : *trying to maintain a serious face*

fyi, Mr.N is miss J and miss M tutor.-.-

All in all, chemistry was fun =D I'm starting to like it more than Biology. Biology had been such a pain in the bottom!!!!!

p/s : all these tutors aka Top scorers in their subjects are not nerds! they are actually quite good looking =) just to debunk the myth that nerds are not hot. =x