Just Another Day

its 4.48AM, college gonna start in approx 4hours time.

Yesterday, was such a melancholic day.
Reached college 8.46am, rushing down the flights of stairs from the car park
running across the hallway to reach class,
bumped into a half asleep Faiz. R in hawaii beach shorts and slippers ;)
and he telling me that our Biology Lecturer is pmsing
its not helping that I am late for her class,
I thought she will send me down to the Program Director to get a Late Slip
(so high school, don't get enrolled here..stick to subang campus no matter how awesome the facilities are,don't be fooled!!!!!) Thank God,she didn't send me cause I just came "in time".
Bio lessons was such a torture
and it's sad that our campus are trying to turn into a "religious school"
My friend here got sent to the Programme Office because of his attire.
As compared to our other campuses, theres no such thing as you must wear this and that!
Apparently, 3-quarters are not allowed.
Wheres the freedom of speech??? In this case, freedom of expression!

Supposed to have lunch with Kumar and Co but decided to ffk last minute because I wasn't in the mood to get out of college.
had brunch with A.Hadi and Faiz.R and crap for 2hours.
Ranging from democracy,racial discrimination, BGR, and my cravings -.-
my two buddies are very amused with my cravings.
Out of the blue,
Faiz.R was saying "lets go hawaii"
A.Hadi replied " why,hawaii? Go langkawi la..."
Can't wait for my trip to Bangkok with them actually but it seems like we're not going after all,with the whole unstable government there.sigh.


Graduation is coming up soon.
Trials its in 11days.
What holds beyond A-levels,huh?
I'm very excited for the new challenge yet I'm afraid
as I'm still "floating"
Dad thinks I'm too fickle and somehow I feel like I had let him down.
people stop living on others people expectations,
just live your life as how you want it to be. (=

Out of random, driving from Hartamas - Subang took me 15mins.
Dislike Jams towards Subang in Federal HIghway and it took me another 10mins to navigate around ss15,everything is one way!!!!!
I couldn't imagine myself studying in Subang Campus.
First, I am always late for my first period class.
Thankfully, theres ample parking lots which means more spaces for mistakes.
Secondly, I have really random cravings.Thank God for HSC next door and Desa Sri Hartamas opposite the road and The curve a stone throw away.
Thirdly, I am always in a rush/hurry,
jam is a very big issue. I like speed =)
and Lastly, I dislike potholes.
on another note, I nearly had a collision with a z4 and an enzo today . The earlier one on Sprint Highway and the latter around PJ.
I guess,my car isnt meant for the fast and furious.bleh!

Smile

Smile is known as a facial expression that features a pleased,kind, or amused expression,typically with the corners of the mouth turned up and the front teeth exposed according to my macbook dictionary.

Its amazing how a smile can light up the world,metaphorically;
How smile can remind you that you will see it every morning when he or she greets you;
Its funny how a song about smile-Uncle Kracker brings back nostalgia;
Its amusing to see someone blush when their crush smile at their directions;
The joy in smile shared between an elderly couple can be perceived as their long lasting commitment;
The world where children believe is a happy world when they play around in the field;
Smiles by children in an unprivileged country shows they are content with what they have;

A smile can also break hearts;
He/She may die in a tragic accident and
you won't be able to see the familiar experession ever again;
The hype for a song can only last a period of time before you even know it exists;
Stop blushing,My dear child,he may just be a tease;
You will be content when you know you had spent your life with someone you truly love;
These children will soon realised this world is full of hatred,
Those smile will vanish when they are hit with wars and disasters and soon the country will be flooded with red teary stains and stench.


So, what smile really brings,huh?
It can just be a mask to all the underlying problems,
It can fool the world around you,
believing that you're of no worries;
the lies that it can cover up,
the message it can portray to others;
Smile can be the most harmless thing,
yet it can be misuse in other ways.

The Lil Things In Life

So today I felt like just taking the car out for a joyride,
plan was drive to Jalan Duta, Hartamas, Damansara, Subang and PJ.
As soon as I entered the car, my petrol tank left two bars -.-
thus, decided I will settle for PJ.
called up Myra H. and Ganesh K. for brunch.
That indian so called tired (more like hang over from last night)
doesn't wanan go brunch with us =(
wasted petrol to drive to his house only -.-
Putting Myra H. and I together isn't exactly the best idea in the world,
first of all, we're VERYYYYY indecisive. lol
Anyway, went to Digital Mall, to get her camera fix sadly the shop isn't there anymore.
and I got my modulator for my car! laughs at you; radio stations who play ads every morning.

Finally we decided to have lunch in ss2.
We decided to be cost effective cause both of us were low on funds.
End up at Sweet Basil Restaurant for some Thai Food.
Random cravings, I wanted subway in the morning..noon came and I wanted Thai -.-
well, the bill came up to rm51.15 for two person. I would say its reasonable.
A big bowl of Tom Yam Soup, Sizzling beef and claypot Tofu.
Actually to think of it,yeah kinda expensive..
The food so-so only...I had taste better Authentic Thai Food =x


Joy just got polished and waxed.
The owner is very happy.
My car look super fineeee...
now just need to change rims..
IF possible, audio system too..
hahahahah...
my uncle said this to me " Girl, You will get better car onces you're older, don't have to modify now"
Sigh...

Motorcyclists are schmucks (=

[ got this off the net]

That was a sarcastic smile , fyi.

Fine, I got my car a whole new paint job which cost me rm x,xxx

and the weekends was fine when I drove from Hartamas back to Bkt Jalil.

and around PJ and Bangsar areas.

So, today's the first day of college for the month of March.

To cut things short, (too pissed to type anyway)

After dropping A.Hadi and Faiz. R home,

was on my way back using section 11,PJ way,

since I was sorta out of cash for toll.hee.

(Reminder: Get a Touch n Go)

For those who uses that road knows very well,its forever JAM! and the roads aren't exactly wide.

So this motorbike fella, was zig zag-ing his way through and the car next to mine was trying to cut into my lane,thus his front was near to my car.

This motorbiker thinks he is so thin when in fact he's not,

and just squeeze through it and SCRATCH MY CAR!!!!

why Malaysian motorcyclists are idiots

no.1 - they think they own the road. driving middle of the road and not going to the side.

no.2 - they think the car drivers will look out for them.

no.3 - Malaysia Law(even if its the motorcyclist's fault, you're to blame. why?cause you drive a car which is bigger than a motorbike,duh!)

no.4 - some don't wear helmets.

no.5 - their passengers don't wear helmets. especially kids!!!![Their so lucky to have such parents,hor]

no.6 - in the night,they like to be in on a camouflage mood. [ie-wearing black or dark clothes in general]

no.7 - they don't signal but then again MOST malaysians don't =.=

no.8 - they like to use the freeway instead of special lanes/tunnels provided for them.

no.9 - they just pissed me off every morning and every evening.

no.10 - Malaysia and its uniqueness. Where can you find such motorcyclists,hor?

Sky is The Limit

Morning,world!!!
It's amazing how I can be awake at 8.36am on a Public Holiday.
If I have a choice, I would sleep
as I think I fell asleep in front of my laptop again.
no surprise there.

Anywho,
I can finally drive...alone.
Just came back from a morning joy ride.
love it when the road is empty and I can park nicely at ample empty parking lots.

Went to my workplace. abit emotional saying bye to everyone.
been an awesome experience to work with Kumon.
heh, it's ironic, I know.
I realised working with kids can be the most fun job ever.
Minus the rascal bunch,and short attention span and attention seeker bunch.
and it's proven teaching girls are easier than boys.
and no, I would never ever consider paediatrician.
It kinda tells me how the real working life is.
There are bound to be some seniors bullying you,which eventually become your friends.
There are bound to be office relationships, not that I am interested but
a lil attention wouldn't hurt.

I had met people from HELP, SeGi, APIIT and people waiting to enrol into overseas uni.
been exciting working with them.
I am missing the kids and my colleague already.
felt so guilty that I skipped work today to attend my mentor's small lil gathering at her house.
should have work today man, cause I'm supposed to just usher parents and kids.
haha. It's some Kumon HIgh Achiever Ceremony today.
and I don't know how to say no to my boss,
seriously.

She still wants me back>.<
and I don't know how to say no
I wanna travel after graduation.>.<"
but I told her, "okay, I will come back and work."
what the heck,right????

And she told me the pay in Kumon,UK is 6pounds/hour.
woah,after conversion sounds like a sweet deal but then of course, cost of living there is high!
deng it, why did I reject my offer?oh well, doubt I can make the requirement.

still considering NUS. yeah, slightly too ambitious.
but something really attracted me there.
problem now is I have to do SAT II and get my AAA for Alevels.
sigh.

deep down, I think I am still indecisive about my future.
Is that why I always take random trips out of Malaysia?
my two best friends think I take more trips out than anyone else who's in college.
oh boy,they can be so wrong. Taking overseas trip in my college is such a norm.
For example, my classmate is in Singapore now.
Probably attending her NTU interview. Hoping the best for her.
My college mates just came back from Japan and Hong Kong.
owh, Japan Liquor candy is orgasmic. 
hmmm, am I suffering from Fugue??? *gasp*
cause one of the symptoms is, unplanned travel away from home.
hahaha. Psychology is taking a toll on me.
He's giving us TEST every deng week.


I wanna go Bangkok for my 19th birthday =p
now thinking how do I do that. so tempted to book a flight and go.
but its such a dangerous place,doubt my parents will allow.
Anyone up for it?
Since, it's so near to finals.
or I can settle for a trip to an island. Langkawi or Pangkor Laut Resort
buzz off, if you think I am spoilt. 


It's so hard to stop myself from shopping.
Was at OU after college yesterday.
ohmygosh, I wanted this white satin skirt from Forever 21 and it was so cheap-RM55. OMGee!
and leather boots from Aldo which was only rm389. [ I know Malaysia weather doesn't permit,but my college does =) ]
and lingerie from La Senza. which was shooo cute.
It's not helping that I am heading to Pavilion later.
This whole abstinence is hard but I am trying..
30days more to go.more or less.

Psycho notes remain static for the past hour.

The mind is filled with so much thoughts.

The amount of distractions or is it merely short attention span?

My heart is heavy on certain issues,

I always said I am fine, when deep down I am just confused.

Am I ready to let go and start a new?

back to square one and turn a new leaf. 

Take the risk all over again, and probably get disappointed in the end?

sometimes I can be my own worst critic ever.

or am I just afraid of committing?

Are those just reasons for me not to face the fact?

Ah, decisions. 

Deep down I really don't wanna start uni in JULY!!!

I tried to please both my parents but its  annoying.

I won't enjoy my time there.

don't even like the course structure itself.

I'm starting to doubt myself,

is this course really for me?

should I just go with the norm? 

why must my course be so difficult to find a uni?

and when I do find the uni I like, why must it not be available to International students????

I feel so far away from God,

my heart is screaming for Him,

longing for Him,

yearning for Him,

I need Him to pull me back up again;

I need to start having faith in Him again,

I do admit I do doubt Him at times.

Motionless

theres so many things I wanna express in words,
but I just couldn't type it out;
theres so many things in my mind,
that just want to scream out loud;
but am just too shy to say so.