Sky is The Limit

Morning,world!!!
It's amazing how I can be awake at 8.36am on a Public Holiday.
If I have a choice, I would sleep
as I think I fell asleep in front of my laptop again.
no surprise there.

Anywho,
I can finally drive...alone.
Just came back from a morning joy ride.
love it when the road is empty and I can park nicely at ample empty parking lots.

Went to my workplace. abit emotional saying bye to everyone.
been an awesome experience to work with Kumon.
heh, it's ironic, I know.
I realised working with kids can be the most fun job ever.
Minus the rascal bunch,and short attention span and attention seeker bunch.
and it's proven teaching girls are easier than boys.
and no, I would never ever consider paediatrician.
It kinda tells me how the real working life is.
There are bound to be some seniors bullying you,which eventually become your friends.
There are bound to be office relationships, not that I am interested but
a lil attention wouldn't hurt.

I had met people from HELP, SeGi, APIIT and people waiting to enrol into overseas uni.
been exciting working with them.
I am missing the kids and my colleague already.
felt so guilty that I skipped work today to attend my mentor's small lil gathering at her house.
should have work today man, cause I'm supposed to just usher parents and kids.
haha. It's some Kumon HIgh Achiever Ceremony today.
and I don't know how to say no to my boss,
seriously.

She still wants me back>.<
and I don't know how to say no
I wanna travel after graduation.>.<"
but I told her, "okay, I will come back and work."
what the heck,right????

And she told me the pay in Kumon,UK is 6pounds/hour.
woah,after conversion sounds like a sweet deal but then of course, cost of living there is high!
deng it, why did I reject my offer?oh well, doubt I can make the requirement.

still considering NUS. yeah, slightly too ambitious.
but something really attracted me there.
problem now is I have to do SAT II and get my AAA for Alevels.
sigh.

deep down, I think I am still indecisive about my future.
Is that why I always take random trips out of Malaysia?
my two best friends think I take more trips out than anyone else who's in college.
oh boy,they can be so wrong. Taking overseas trip in my college is such a norm.
For example, my classmate is in Singapore now.
Probably attending her NTU interview. Hoping the best for her.
My college mates just came back from Japan and Hong Kong.
owh, Japan Liquor candy is orgasmic. 
hmmm, am I suffering from Fugue??? *gasp*
cause one of the symptoms is, unplanned travel away from home.
hahaha. Psychology is taking a toll on me.
He's giving us TEST every deng week.


I wanna go Bangkok for my 19th birthday =p
now thinking how do I do that. so tempted to book a flight and go.
but its such a dangerous place,doubt my parents will allow.
Anyone up for it?
Since, it's so near to finals.
or I can settle for a trip to an island. Langkawi or Pangkor Laut Resort
buzz off, if you think I am spoilt. 


It's so hard to stop myself from shopping.
Was at OU after college yesterday.
ohmygosh, I wanted this white satin skirt from Forever 21 and it was so cheap-RM55. OMGee!
and leather boots from Aldo which was only rm389. [ I know Malaysia weather doesn't permit,but my college does =) ]
and lingerie from La Senza. which was shooo cute.
It's not helping that I am heading to Pavilion later.
This whole abstinence is hard but I am trying..
30days more to go.more or less.

Psycho notes remain static for the past hour.

The mind is filled with so much thoughts.

The amount of distractions or is it merely short attention span?

My heart is heavy on certain issues,

I always said I am fine, when deep down I am just confused.

Am I ready to let go and start a new?

back to square one and turn a new leaf. 

Take the risk all over again, and probably get disappointed in the end?

sometimes I can be my own worst critic ever.

or am I just afraid of committing?

Are those just reasons for me not to face the fact?

Ah, decisions. 

Deep down I really don't wanna start uni in JULY!!!

I tried to please both my parents but its  annoying.

I won't enjoy my time there.

don't even like the course structure itself.

I'm starting to doubt myself,

is this course really for me?

should I just go with the norm? 

why must my course be so difficult to find a uni?

and when I do find the uni I like, why must it not be available to International students????

I feel so far away from God,

my heart is screaming for Him,

longing for Him,

yearning for Him,

I need Him to pull me back up again;

I need to start having faith in Him again,

I do admit I do doubt Him at times.

Motionless

theres so many things I wanna express in words,
but I just couldn't type it out;
theres so many things in my mind,
that just want to scream out loud;
but am just too shy to say so.

Party People

tonight was an AWESOME night.period.
started off with sucky music but towards wee hours of morning,
the music was better.
All in All, had fun with Sam C. , Faiz R. , Stephanie B. , Yuen Ling and the rest of their friends.
Met up with Joe Flizzo (however you spell his name), stephy close buddy...makes me appreciate malaysian artiste more =x
Of all places, I met her there. what a small world!!>.<

nevertheless, I still miss Singapore clubbing scene.
It's safer and its till 5am =D
not like I am that kinda person who loves clubbing but sometimes its nice to just let your hair down and dance all night long and of course, suffer blisters the next day.


Freaking dislike mos
some horny fugly looking guy tried to touched my butt and waist. wth??? he kept on trying and thank God I had "people shields"
thank God Faiz. R was next to me and some nice random malay dude who just wanna dance and not touch or grind people. urgh.malaysian boys ah...
see what I mean singapore is way cooler.


but anywho no more a malaysian clubbing virgin.haha.I sound so noob.

I miss Singapore. I miss Orchard Road and I fell in love with NUS.

will blog about my singy trip another day.
It's 5.51am....blogging with Faiz. R new laptop.
I'm such a noob with windows.period.
as I am typing this,he's snoring. kidding.
Thanks buddy for temaning me, I would freak out without you and Sam to watch out for me >.<
and Thanks for letting us crash at your place.
hee.


and my throat hurts like @#$$%%
so hard to swallow...urgh...
oh, its amazing how we're all sober,eh?

aimless

skyping with TSMA while having mint chocolates ( not a good idea)

yes, I decided to make a heart shape out of the foil.

My failed french mani. [shows how free I am -.- ]

while cleaning my scissors,accidentally slit my finger.hahahaha.

was down to city centre today

First time in my life to see roads in downtown to be empty 

and parking lots in KLCC and Pavilion to be empty.

*gasp*

That's Federal Territory Day,for you ;)

I think I should start something called Twitter -.- 

p/s: just realised all three shoots have my National SPM Bible Knowledge Quiz oversize tee. hee.