The mind is filled with so much thoughts.
The amount of distractions or is it merely short attention span?
My heart is heavy on certain issues,
I always said I am fine, when deep down I am just confused.
Am I ready to let go and start a new?
back to square one and turn a new leaf.
Take the risk all over again, and probably get disappointed in the end?
sometimes I can be my own worst critic ever.
or am I just afraid of committing?
Are those just reasons for me not to face the fact?
Ah, decisions.
Deep down I really don't wanna start uni in JULY!!!
I tried to please both my parents but its annoying.
I won't enjoy my time there.
don't even like the course structure itself.
I'm starting to doubt myself,
is this course really for me?
should I just go with the norm?
why must my course be so difficult to find a uni?
and when I do find the uni I like, why must it not be available to International students????
I feel so far away from God,
my heart is screaming for Him,
longing for Him,
yearning for Him,
I need Him to pull me back up again;
I need to start having faith in Him again,
I do admit I do doubt Him at times.
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