heart strings

Heart strings being the strongest tendons that holds the heart. Tried it once during Biology class, inspecting a cow's heart,using just my fingers to lift up its heart through these heart strings. Is that strong.

well, no matter how strong these tendons are, human are bound to breakdown.
Putting up an upfront,wearing a mask for so long.
So that everyone will assume they are content and happy.
Ego can really destroy a person.
Showing emotions was a no-no for an egoistic person as its a sign of weakness.

Whenever a problem rise, instead of finding solutions for it, running away was an easier option.
Got to say having atleast 10 pages of my passport being in colourful stamps is quite impressive to me
and an addiction, like stamp collection when you are younger.

Coming back home was a mistake for me. Knowing so many things had changed in three months,imagine the huge shock. From knowing my uncle had recently passed away, two days after I had arrived home and obviously I couldn't attend his funeral because its all the way in Hong Kong, while most of my relatives are there, here, I am. From that to feeling I am losing my childhood friend to his girlfriend. I mean I am happy for him, but sometimes hanging out with old buddies won't kill you,you know. From knowing I wouldn't see my best friend for quite sometime because we're just in different countries right now.

Its funny how I feel more lonely in my home country than I do in overseas. How I feel like I don't belong here, the place I was born. I used to heart KL to death, now I dislike it so much.  With Heathrow Airport being a chaos right now, how I wish I could catch the next flight back to the land of tea and scones. Another week in Malaysia is like being in hell.

The biggest weakling of all is definitely the person with the biggest ego.
Never had I cried from 2am till 6am.
Looking at the mirror, puffy eyes, red nose.
The amount of toughness is finally out.
Not so tough after all,eh?


xxx

When the city meets the sea

Tomorrow would be the LAST day of COLLEGE!
Next week till mid-June would be finals! It's a serious business because if we screwed up Alevels,we're screwed up for life. sigh.
Tomorrow would be de day guys suit up and girls dress up.wink.wink.
BEWARE: camwhoring session would be massive tomorrow.

Gosh, 1.5 years had just passed like that.
No doubt I will miss college.
It had been by far the best journey I had ever been through.
Best college in the whole wide world.chuckles.
Friends and acquaintances that I had met and befriended, truly cherish them. Though, my guy friends always outnumbered my gal pals,which I lack of. Pretty scary but I had came to this point of conclusion, just can't click with girls. Boys=less drama. girls= alot of backstabbing + drama. chuckles.

Pretty emotional right now,
everyone is heading to every continent in this world,
can you imagine the amount of tears and sappy session?
and of course, the amount of trips to KLIA.

On random note - I had been seeing accidents lately and recently my ABS malfunctioned. and I have YET to send it to repair cause I need the car to go from point A to point B. Driving slow is definitely not my thing and because of this problem, I had to drive at 60km/hr from my usual speed. and goodness, that only lasted a day and today was just the usual speed of mine and somehow I don't seem to learn my lesson. Nearly had a collision with a Pajero and a Camry and thats because both these ding dongs wanna cut into my lane without signaling at the same time! and was driving under the rain in the evening, and I dislike cars who mind-screwed me. The wira in front of me, out of nowhere brakes when theres plenty of space in front his or her car. I had to slam jammed my brake and my ABS wasn't working and the tyres squeaked. hahahahah.

When the world is on your shoulder

Through observation, Asian parents have a very high expectation towards their children especially when it comes to grades! Academic achievement isn't everything if they haven't realised. Am personally thankful for my parents who's not so-traditional.

Well, I had been worried about my Trial's results letter arriving to my house, thought of intercepting it but failed. Mom got it before I did. Funny thing is; she is not confronting me about my owh so "awesome" results. According to my psychology mate, he thinks my parents wants me to come clean with them instead of them approaching me. Gah, why am I supposed to say to them? Oh, I nap too much >.< cause I screwed my sleeping hours pretty good? Had been playing a fool and not studying? I hate being observed yet I still like my guilty pleasure of observing. chuckles.

Could tell mommeh and pappi are disappointed. Am frustrated at one point, I worked hard for my Chemistry, well not that hard but it was THE ONLY subject I studied for Trials and yet its scored is the lowest among other subjects which I barely touch ze books. Chemistry and I don't go so well,apparently. NONO, I didn't have time to do my application section!and that had brought me down so badly and of course, Organic chemistry which I can't never get it stuck in my brain! its like smartTAG,without barrier..it will just speed of ze brain cells, and I thought Maths and I had a bad chemistry. I do like Maths in Alevels,surprisingly! >.< but had dropped it since. why? because my Maths Lecturer is being a catalyst to "make-Jo Ey-hates-maths" and because of my classmates drilling me day and night and being a typical chinese (kiasu) I so wanted to prove My Maths lecturer he was wrong!Hah! By God's grace, I did proved him wrong when my AS results came out. BY FAR, I think he is the most demotivating lecturer ever. I miss Ms. J who left because of her pregnancy>.< She made me love Maths when I hated it to the core back in Form5 then came this oh-so-racist-bias Lecturer. Gosh, I'm b*tching.
But, I wasn't the ONLY one who dislike him, practically more than half of the class dislike him and some of us couldn't stand him and drop the subject in A2 because we can't change lecturer. URGH!

If maths can be as delightful as chocolates <3

ok enough about b*tching about him, bad chi.
Anyway, skipped college today. Only went for Psychology class and thats it.
It was ze last Psychology class. sobs.
He is the one of the best lecturer around.
He doesn't pressure us to study, he allowed us to go our own pace.
He is always so understanding (because I'm always late for his class, fyi Psycho is always the first period and since I have to drive now to college -.- if I missed the 7am alarm clock, I will sleep till 9am .chuckles. This is cause I dislike being stuck in a jam)
He is very motivated in motivating his students.
He craps alot of joke in class which of course,related to ze syllabus.
Sex is a must topic for him every lesson. chuckles.
Lessons are never boring, theres always video and photos to see for every chapter (:


Then theres my Chemistry lecturer and mentor.
She's by far the Most Professional Lecturer I had ever seen.
I may had been a b*tch to her for giving her such a hard time during AS as I wasn't used to her teaching style,but sooner I got adapted to it.
She was very patient with me although I gave her hell.
Though my trials doesn't justify my effort in it but its my Favourite subject and I work hard just need to work HARDER.


College is coming to an end in less than 2 weeks time and so is finals! Another chapter in life, another chapter begins with unexpected obstacles and surprises. Its scary! I already rejected two offers to two universities. one, being financial aid and another because I applied for fun never expecting anything from it. I really want a gap year, but my parents are being very irrational about this. But to an extent, they have their reasons, I am gonna use their moolah to travel and explore the world. Their hard earn money. Thus, my aunt jokingly said this to my dad "You're always so busy with your work, so your daughter help you to 'travel' ".

Rottnest Island, Perth. <3

where I learnt how to cycle.chuckles.

Pretty hype up with all the trips I mah going after finals!
As quoted from my coursemate, Nic " Doesn't matter when A2 starts but it matters when A2 ends!"

Roadtrip with ze dear of mine in an awesome car! (:  He FINALLY gonna trust me with his car.promise, I won't crash it..hopefully. If not need to sell my car, bags,shoes,gadgets,clothes etc just to fix prolly an inch of his car. GASP.

Gosh, I have such a scattered brain, my topic had diverted completely.sigh.

Anyhowever, the usual trio skipped the rest of the day of college and went to Curve for Breakfast. Guess what????!?!? We ended up at Coffee Bean, which I dislike very much. I mean, these two boys can be so indecisive of what to eat and I can't decide cause I was so hungry and having gastric.chuckles..we could have had it in college, since theres one CB located barely 100m away from college.

After breakfast, went to Border's/Starbucks where they studied Bio while I was reading news. Gosh, its so quiet there =x its way better than the Starbucks in JayaOne where I used to nerd.

So, my dear lil bro was really worried about uni application cause his parents had been pestering him about it. Tried cheering him up but ended up being teased by him.  Its so strange, he's a year younger than me but his maturity level surpassed a 21 years old guy.

We had this random conversation about something which I couldn't recall
and he called me a "Virgin Mind". It was something he said that was dirty but I didn't get what he meant.
Gosh, clearly being 19th has its own effect!
 The conversation go on something like this

FR : I bet my younger brother who is 13 is more intelligent than you.
JY: Are you saying I am dumb? -.-
FR : Sexually. *Grin*

Aight, better get back to do something studying.
Owh, on random note - John Mayer Battle studies album is awesome possum (:

If macky crashes, would be so dead for finals. I-need-it-to-nerd-cause-all-mah-notes-are-inside-save-the-environment-paperless is the way!-and-of course-addiction-to-faceboook-which-needs-to-be-out-of-my-system!


I haven't been shopping since Feb! *big gasp*
My hands are very itchy!
Its not helping, most of my friends are dragging me away from buying and shopping.
I was dragged away from entering MNG today by FR. deng it! boys they will never understand the torture of not buying! meh such a spendthrift gal -.-

My shopping list (which need to be done after finals ) :

• Lomo camera. lomography  is so candid perfect <3
• 500D because the price had dropped! FINALLY!
• update ze macbook or get a new macbook pro! its dashing sexay ;) (omgee, my macbook was smashed on the floor when I emergency brake today, macky was sitting nicely on the passenger seat and minutes later its on the floor of the car*gasp* dislike people who drive on right lane and drive so slow and doesn't wanna go to the left lane then out of no where brake.pffft)
• Bose headphones. 
• Coach summer collection bags!!!! Looks so good on a beach  okay! Missing Aust beaches like omgee=( 

See what I meant by spendthrift!!! but blame the world for making us so superficial =x

When I'm Lost, You Found me

After weeks of depressing,
After days of tossing here and there,
After hours of thinking,
After minutes of coming out with possibilities,
After seconds of making decisions,
Woke up this morning,
I felt like my prayer had finally been answered. *grin*
Finally, I made THE decision that I felt at peace with.
Guess, I'm not lost/unsure after all.
Can't wait to finish and graduate A-levels.

Happy Easter,everyone. =)


<3

Reasons

You like/liked me for the wrong reasons,
You don't freaking appreciate me,
Stop bragging to your friends;
when I am hardly in your grips,
You don't even show like you care about me,
The lil things I asked you to do,
You came up with reasons not to do it.

Its amazing how your friends kept telling me
how nice you are and am very lucky to have you fallen for me,
when I find you the end of the spectrum!

Yes, Psychology taught me not to make a decision when you're emotional/angry/whatsoever.
screw it.
Bet I will laughed at this one day. =)

Worried

Trials gonna start on TUESDAY!
and I am sleeping more than 10hours like a baby =.=
Just found out coffee is like weed. Not like I tried weed before, but
the feeling is sooo stoned.
Imagine having a Venti Vanilla Latte at night
and then another round of Black Coffee in the morning and head off to college.
Your brain is very much stoned!!!!
Shouldn't have went to college last Friday,
practically wasted my time listening to Lectures that I don't need it.
and slept a whole deal after college! =)
Had an awesome possum lunch with Mr.G at Jaya One.
At first, it was Royal Selangor Club then that fella dress up so casual,
thus planned cancelled.
And surprisingly, I didn't have any craving and man,they just can't decide what to eat.
The girls have to do the all the decision making -.-

Anywho, been having terrible headaches for 3 consecutive days!
Panadols didn't help either =(
Thinking of going for a MRI scan.
and ding dong, Mr.G said this " why do you even need it? If you go for it, for sure they will say,there's no brain to scan"
Omgee, ultimate lameness.YET I still laughed at it -.-

On another random,
what happens when the line between best friends get blurred?
Will the friendship gets weird out?
hmm.....I beg to differ.

Swiss chocolates!!!<3

p/s: my lil sis flicked four of it before I can even take my camera -.-

Another random note- I kinda thankful for the family members I have =)

They never fail to surprise me. 

After much sleep deprivation and the whole trials, uni worrisome 

coming home and seeing my fridge filled with chocolates again =D

Thank You Aunt K and Uncle D. 

<3 <3 <3

I like the fact, the view outside of my room never fail to surprise me =)

If you look closely, MV on the far right.

Not For Minors

College had been really weird these few days.
Who would have thought that Lesbian stuff can happen in Co-ed too?
well, coming from an all girls school, its not a big hoo haa for me but am very traumatised.

It all started in Chemistry class,
(perhaps you were expecting it from Biology class)
it was during chemistry lesson on Monday,

M turns behind to a row of  tables  behind her and stare at us with her sexy stares.

Miss M : "A, I will open my legs wide for you "
MIss A  : Awwww.....
Miss J   : *horrified* o.O

Tuesday came ;
After college is over,

Miss M  told this to Mr. A
" Oh,I will have fun with Miss J during Chemistry workshop"

Miss J told Mr. A
" Yeah, we will have an awesome threesome together"

Mr. A got terrified and ran away.

Miss J and Miss M burst out laughing hysterically.

During chemistry workshop ;

Miss M accidentally footsie Miss J.
Miss J was traumatised,indeed. She felt violated! LOL
Thus end the study date.
Sadly, it wasn't "threesome"
Mr. N was their tutor.
However, 30minutes later,Mr. X and Mr.C came along because their tutee were MIA.
An hour later,Mr.R came along to disturb us,
Miss  J was observing random behaviours among them,
she figured out why Mr.N wasn't feeling cold in the library,
because she thought he wore 2 layers of shirt but alas it was just the design of that shirt itself.
Mr R then came up with this question to Miss J
"Is Mr.N hot to you?"
Miss J burst out laughing and can't say anything.
Mr.X and Mr.R started bullying Miss J and Miss M had fun laughing.
Mr.C went off to teach Miss L maths.

Mr. X and Mr.R : Just say he's hot la, don't have to check his shirt out.
Miss J : *stunned**recovering from laughters*
Mr. X and Mr. R : If you said he's not hot, you're bruising his ego.
Mr.N : *trying to maintain a serious face*

fyi, Mr.N is miss J and miss M tutor.-.-

All in all, chemistry was fun =D I'm starting to like it more than Biology. Biology had been such a pain in the bottom!!!!!

p/s : all these tutors aka Top scorers in their subjects are not nerds! they are actually quite good looking =) just to debunk the myth that nerds are not hot. =x

Just Another Day

its 4.48AM, college gonna start in approx 4hours time.

Yesterday, was such a melancholic day.
Reached college 8.46am, rushing down the flights of stairs from the car park
running across the hallway to reach class,
bumped into a half asleep Faiz. R in hawaii beach shorts and slippers ;)
and he telling me that our Biology Lecturer is pmsing
its not helping that I am late for her class,
I thought she will send me down to the Program Director to get a Late Slip
(so high school, don't get enrolled here..stick to subang campus no matter how awesome the facilities are,don't be fooled!!!!!) Thank God,she didn't send me cause I just came "in time".
Bio lessons was such a torture
and it's sad that our campus are trying to turn into a "religious school"
My friend here got sent to the Programme Office because of his attire.
As compared to our other campuses, theres no such thing as you must wear this and that!
Apparently, 3-quarters are not allowed.
Wheres the freedom of speech??? In this case, freedom of expression!

Supposed to have lunch with Kumar and Co but decided to ffk last minute because I wasn't in the mood to get out of college.
had brunch with A.Hadi and Faiz.R and crap for 2hours.
Ranging from democracy,racial discrimination, BGR, and my cravings -.-
my two buddies are very amused with my cravings.
Out of the blue,
Faiz.R was saying "lets go hawaii"
A.Hadi replied " why,hawaii? Go langkawi la..."
Can't wait for my trip to Bangkok with them actually but it seems like we're not going after all,with the whole unstable government there.sigh.


Graduation is coming up soon.
Trials its in 11days.
What holds beyond A-levels,huh?
I'm very excited for the new challenge yet I'm afraid
as I'm still "floating"
Dad thinks I'm too fickle and somehow I feel like I had let him down.
people stop living on others people expectations,
just live your life as how you want it to be. (=

Out of random, driving from Hartamas - Subang took me 15mins.
Dislike Jams towards Subang in Federal HIghway and it took me another 10mins to navigate around ss15,everything is one way!!!!!
I couldn't imagine myself studying in Subang Campus.
First, I am always late for my first period class.
Thankfully, theres ample parking lots which means more spaces for mistakes.
Secondly, I have really random cravings.Thank God for HSC next door and Desa Sri Hartamas opposite the road and The curve a stone throw away.
Thirdly, I am always in a rush/hurry,
jam is a very big issue. I like speed =)
and Lastly, I dislike potholes.
on another note, I nearly had a collision with a z4 and an enzo today . The earlier one on Sprint Highway and the latter around PJ.
I guess,my car isnt meant for the fast and furious.bleh!

Smile

Smile is known as a facial expression that features a pleased,kind, or amused expression,typically with the corners of the mouth turned up and the front teeth exposed according to my macbook dictionary.

Its amazing how a smile can light up the world,metaphorically;
How smile can remind you that you will see it every morning when he or she greets you;
Its funny how a song about smile-Uncle Kracker brings back nostalgia;
Its amusing to see someone blush when their crush smile at their directions;
The joy in smile shared between an elderly couple can be perceived as their long lasting commitment;
The world where children believe is a happy world when they play around in the field;
Smiles by children in an unprivileged country shows they are content with what they have;

A smile can also break hearts;
He/She may die in a tragic accident and
you won't be able to see the familiar experession ever again;
The hype for a song can only last a period of time before you even know it exists;
Stop blushing,My dear child,he may just be a tease;
You will be content when you know you had spent your life with someone you truly love;
These children will soon realised this world is full of hatred,
Those smile will vanish when they are hit with wars and disasters and soon the country will be flooded with red teary stains and stench.


So, what smile really brings,huh?
It can just be a mask to all the underlying problems,
It can fool the world around you,
believing that you're of no worries;
the lies that it can cover up,
the message it can portray to others;
Smile can be the most harmless thing,
yet it can be misuse in other ways.

The Lil Things In Life

So today I felt like just taking the car out for a joyride,
plan was drive to Jalan Duta, Hartamas, Damansara, Subang and PJ.
As soon as I entered the car, my petrol tank left two bars -.-
thus, decided I will settle for PJ.
called up Myra H. and Ganesh K. for brunch.
That indian so called tired (more like hang over from last night)
doesn't wanan go brunch with us =(
wasted petrol to drive to his house only -.-
Putting Myra H. and I together isn't exactly the best idea in the world,
first of all, we're VERYYYYY indecisive. lol
Anyway, went to Digital Mall, to get her camera fix sadly the shop isn't there anymore.
and I got my modulator for my car! laughs at you; radio stations who play ads every morning.

Finally we decided to have lunch in ss2.
We decided to be cost effective cause both of us were low on funds.
End up at Sweet Basil Restaurant for some Thai Food.
Random cravings, I wanted subway in the morning..noon came and I wanted Thai -.-
well, the bill came up to rm51.15 for two person. I would say its reasonable.
A big bowl of Tom Yam Soup, Sizzling beef and claypot Tofu.
Actually to think of it,yeah kinda expensive..
The food so-so only...I had taste better Authentic Thai Food =x


Joy just got polished and waxed.
The owner is very happy.
My car look super fineeee...
now just need to change rims..
IF possible, audio system too..
hahahahah...
my uncle said this to me " Girl, You will get better car onces you're older, don't have to modify now"
Sigh...

Motorcyclists are schmucks (=

[ got this off the net]

That was a sarcastic smile , fyi.

Fine, I got my car a whole new paint job which cost me rm x,xxx

and the weekends was fine when I drove from Hartamas back to Bkt Jalil.

and around PJ and Bangsar areas.

So, today's the first day of college for the month of March.

To cut things short, (too pissed to type anyway)

After dropping A.Hadi and Faiz. R home,

was on my way back using section 11,PJ way,

since I was sorta out of cash for toll.hee.

(Reminder: Get a Touch n Go)

For those who uses that road knows very well,its forever JAM! and the roads aren't exactly wide.

So this motorbike fella, was zig zag-ing his way through and the car next to mine was trying to cut into my lane,thus his front was near to my car.

This motorbiker thinks he is so thin when in fact he's not,

and just squeeze through it and SCRATCH MY CAR!!!!

why Malaysian motorcyclists are idiots

no.1 - they think they own the road. driving middle of the road and not going to the side.

no.2 - they think the car drivers will look out for them.

no.3 - Malaysia Law(even if its the motorcyclist's fault, you're to blame. why?cause you drive a car which is bigger than a motorbike,duh!)

no.4 - some don't wear helmets.

no.5 - their passengers don't wear helmets. especially kids!!!![Their so lucky to have such parents,hor]

no.6 - in the night,they like to be in on a camouflage mood. [ie-wearing black or dark clothes in general]

no.7 - they don't signal but then again MOST malaysians don't =.=

no.8 - they like to use the freeway instead of special lanes/tunnels provided for them.

no.9 - they just pissed me off every morning and every evening.

no.10 - Malaysia and its uniqueness. Where can you find such motorcyclists,hor?

Sky is The Limit

Morning,world!!!
It's amazing how I can be awake at 8.36am on a Public Holiday.
If I have a choice, I would sleep
as I think I fell asleep in front of my laptop again.
no surprise there.

Anywho,
I can finally drive...alone.
Just came back from a morning joy ride.
love it when the road is empty and I can park nicely at ample empty parking lots.

Went to my workplace. abit emotional saying bye to everyone.
been an awesome experience to work with Kumon.
heh, it's ironic, I know.
I realised working with kids can be the most fun job ever.
Minus the rascal bunch,and short attention span and attention seeker bunch.
and it's proven teaching girls are easier than boys.
and no, I would never ever consider paediatrician.
It kinda tells me how the real working life is.
There are bound to be some seniors bullying you,which eventually become your friends.
There are bound to be office relationships, not that I am interested but
a lil attention wouldn't hurt.

I had met people from HELP, SeGi, APIIT and people waiting to enrol into overseas uni.
been exciting working with them.
I am missing the kids and my colleague already.
felt so guilty that I skipped work today to attend my mentor's small lil gathering at her house.
should have work today man, cause I'm supposed to just usher parents and kids.
haha. It's some Kumon HIgh Achiever Ceremony today.
and I don't know how to say no to my boss,
seriously.

She still wants me back>.<
and I don't know how to say no
I wanna travel after graduation.>.<"
but I told her, "okay, I will come back and work."
what the heck,right????

And she told me the pay in Kumon,UK is 6pounds/hour.
woah,after conversion sounds like a sweet deal but then of course, cost of living there is high!
deng it, why did I reject my offer?oh well, doubt I can make the requirement.

still considering NUS. yeah, slightly too ambitious.
but something really attracted me there.
problem now is I have to do SAT II and get my AAA for Alevels.
sigh.

deep down, I think I am still indecisive about my future.
Is that why I always take random trips out of Malaysia?
my two best friends think I take more trips out than anyone else who's in college.
oh boy,they can be so wrong. Taking overseas trip in my college is such a norm.
For example, my classmate is in Singapore now.
Probably attending her NTU interview. Hoping the best for her.
My college mates just came back from Japan and Hong Kong.
owh, Japan Liquor candy is orgasmic. 
hmmm, am I suffering from Fugue??? *gasp*
cause one of the symptoms is, unplanned travel away from home.
hahaha. Psychology is taking a toll on me.
He's giving us TEST every deng week.


I wanna go Bangkok for my 19th birthday =p
now thinking how do I do that. so tempted to book a flight and go.
but its such a dangerous place,doubt my parents will allow.
Anyone up for it?
Since, it's so near to finals.
or I can settle for a trip to an island. Langkawi or Pangkor Laut Resort
buzz off, if you think I am spoilt. 


It's so hard to stop myself from shopping.
Was at OU after college yesterday.
ohmygosh, I wanted this white satin skirt from Forever 21 and it was so cheap-RM55. OMGee!
and leather boots from Aldo which was only rm389. [ I know Malaysia weather doesn't permit,but my college does =) ]
and lingerie from La Senza. which was shooo cute.
It's not helping that I am heading to Pavilion later.
This whole abstinence is hard but I am trying..
30days more to go.more or less.

Psycho notes remain static for the past hour.

The mind is filled with so much thoughts.

The amount of distractions or is it merely short attention span?

My heart is heavy on certain issues,

I always said I am fine, when deep down I am just confused.

Am I ready to let go and start a new?

back to square one and turn a new leaf. 

Take the risk all over again, and probably get disappointed in the end?

sometimes I can be my own worst critic ever.

or am I just afraid of committing?

Are those just reasons for me not to face the fact?

Ah, decisions. 

Deep down I really don't wanna start uni in JULY!!!

I tried to please both my parents but its  annoying.

I won't enjoy my time there.

don't even like the course structure itself.

I'm starting to doubt myself,

is this course really for me?

should I just go with the norm? 

why must my course be so difficult to find a uni?

and when I do find the uni I like, why must it not be available to International students????

I feel so far away from God,

my heart is screaming for Him,

longing for Him,

yearning for Him,

I need Him to pull me back up again;

I need to start having faith in Him again,

I do admit I do doubt Him at times.

Motionless

theres so many things I wanna express in words,
but I just couldn't type it out;
theres so many things in my mind,
that just want to scream out loud;
but am just too shy to say so.

Party People

tonight was an AWESOME night.period.
started off with sucky music but towards wee hours of morning,
the music was better.
All in All, had fun with Sam C. , Faiz R. , Stephanie B. , Yuen Ling and the rest of their friends.
Met up with Joe Flizzo (however you spell his name), stephy close buddy...makes me appreciate malaysian artiste more =x
Of all places, I met her there. what a small world!!>.<

nevertheless, I still miss Singapore clubbing scene.
It's safer and its till 5am =D
not like I am that kinda person who loves clubbing but sometimes its nice to just let your hair down and dance all night long and of course, suffer blisters the next day.


Freaking dislike mos
some horny fugly looking guy tried to touched my butt and waist. wth??? he kept on trying and thank God I had "people shields"
thank God Faiz. R was next to me and some nice random malay dude who just wanna dance and not touch or grind people. urgh.malaysian boys ah...
see what I mean singapore is way cooler.


but anywho no more a malaysian clubbing virgin.haha.I sound so noob.

I miss Singapore. I miss Orchard Road and I fell in love with NUS.

will blog about my singy trip another day.
It's 5.51am....blogging with Faiz. R new laptop.
I'm such a noob with windows.period.
as I am typing this,he's snoring. kidding.
Thanks buddy for temaning me, I would freak out without you and Sam to watch out for me >.<
and Thanks for letting us crash at your place.
hee.


and my throat hurts like @#$$%%
so hard to swallow...urgh...
oh, its amazing how we're all sober,eh?

aimless

skyping with TSMA while having mint chocolates ( not a good idea)

yes, I decided to make a heart shape out of the foil.

My failed french mani. [shows how free I am -.- ]

while cleaning my scissors,accidentally slit my finger.hahahaha.

was down to city centre today

First time in my life to see roads in downtown to be empty 

and parking lots in KLCC and Pavilion to be empty.

*gasp*

That's Federal Territory Day,for you ;)

I think I should start something called Twitter -.- 

p/s: just realised all three shoots have my National SPM Bible Knowledge Quiz oversize tee. hee.

Wide Awake

its 4.43am.
wide awake.
just came back from downtown.
roads were so empty to drive on. sweet!!!!
of course, I wasn't the driver.
became the navigator again,meant to be.
I always had this impression that Changkat was this high end lepak place,
I was wrong.
it's rather rowdy,not to my liking.
though the whole stretch its all bars and pubs.
Thinks Clarke Quay is so much better.
Never drank a single liquor minus a sip of some odd cocktails by a dare.
mommeh gonna be furious in few hours time since I am home late.
stomach is grumbling.
mamak,anyone?


random fact: its full moon today! it's 30 percent brighter and 14 percent wider than any other full moon. it's really shiny and pretty. first full moon of 2010 and apparently its called the wolf moon. =)

Never say Never

Ah, I survived. nuff said.
I may not be perfect but decided to turn a new leaf.
Is not too late,is it?

A special thanks to Sam W. and Faiz R. for being there when I'm vulnerable .
Thanks for all the prep talk and thanks for being so concern.
Glad you guys are my buddies =D

Felt rather relieved.

Anyhowever,
went for a movie with TSMA today for Black Ransom preview.
She won some movie preview tickets and she brought me along.
woah, I'm honoured.
She's just too chicken to ask someone,thus she asked me. LOL.jokes.


The movie kinda reminds me of law abiding citizen.
Can't wait to see her and MCdeCMM this coming weekend.sweet.


Just found out my dear friend, TW Lim just got into King's!
Envy much.
But alas my course is not available in King's for international students.
childhood dream shattered. 
Should I change course so I can get my butt into King's?LOL
That shows how much I actually love that place.

Her new hairstyle. so cute,right? and Mango Snow Mountain =D
It's addictive.nuff said.

Random fact : playing L4d2 and then watch Legion is not a way to destress instead it causes distress! and girls can eat more than guys. It's a proven fact. Don't argue with the future dietician ;)

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Yesterday, mommy finally allowed me to drive alone for a short distance -.-
Didn't made a very good impression, as I dropped her off, Was trying to cut lane to get back to the main road, and I'm very sure this car was very far from me.(I wore my specs, so yeah cannot be that I misjudged)
and when i was about to go to the second lane, the car speed and tailgated me. and honked me?!?!?!
mommeh saw the incident.aih.
Praise God, I arrived home safely. minus the whole parallel parking,learning learning.


Being not able to drive restrict your freedom,er duh?
so while driving back from Sri Aman back home and on the way dropped mommeh off,
all the radio stations were being a pain playing really emotional songs
and I wonder why.
Then I found out, Sultan of Johor had rest in peace.

I'm wide awake at 5.13am?????
It's a Sunday =D

AS Results gonna be out in 24hours time.scream.freak.I'm worried and scared 


currently listening to I will meet you there-Owl City.

Weightless

I can't believed I survived the first week of college.

First day of college was awesome cause I was late for class by  five minutes. Daddy woke up late and I personally think Malaysians are not going through economic crisis because the amount of cars on the road that morning surpass the amount of cars thats on the same road to my college last year.

My first period of Maths. Oh yes, I made a good impression with my awesome grand entrance.
Atleast I'm fashionably late in his class.
Alar, not his first time seeing me late also. hee.
besides he was refreshing our memories about vectors back in AS levels.
Vectors in A2 is so confusing. r= a+tm ...
I think Taylors should invest in something called a smart board!
It's the coolest board to teach students. =)

It's so nice to see everyone again,everyone looks so stylo with their new hairstyle and clothes. =)
I miss those empty corridors and walkway where I could hop around and jump around.
now with the new intake, it's so packed!

Last Friday, I went for work early.3pm.
My boss was so happy to see me,hopefully.
I wanna share this rather interesting work experience I had that very day.
Like usual it's sitting down and tutor kids on maths.
It's rather ironic since I don't fancy maths that much.
I wonder how I got my job too.
but everyone can do primary school maths lar...

so this boy came in. He looks so innocent and angelic with his huge eyeballs.
Greet with a sweet smile.
but all these turns ugly
I think you know how the ending goes,
he's one rascal
by far the naughtiest kid I had ever thought,
I understand how he feels,he had short attention span,
practically you have to sit and watch him do every question,
you moved your attention to another kid, he will start disturbing other kids,
attention seeker betul.
sucks that i fell for his cute and innocent looks.
still forgivable.
and I think whatever your parents named you reflects you
his name was Omen.

My weekend was rather slacky and productive at the same time.
practically eat and sleep the whole day on Saturday.
On Sunday, went for University Open day, had lunch with the Syed EI, Syed EI friend, G Kumar.
Syed EI pimped up his car with a girl voice for his alarm.was amused?
G kumar drove safely today. very rare indeed! kinda miss his crazy driving skills but nothing beats a Korean driving skills.
Went Pavilion and shopped.
It seems like a routine for me to go Pavilion every weekend without fail. 


Now back to studying,hopefully
Abnormality Psycho test this Friday =O
Position Paper deadline this Friday
ECA drive this Friday. Thank God I'm not the PR officer anymore,it's a hectic job. LOL

I feel the calm and serenity in the midst of KL.

Of Training and Eating

yesterday...
woke up at 6.28am because I decided to be healthy this year NOT that I am not healthy but the day before yesterday,I was at Pavilion and was trying on this jeans which was  size six by the way and usually I can fit in it and still have space =D but that PARTICULAR jeans, I can't button *gasp* The salesgirl look at me puzzled when I asked for  a size bigger and when she came back she told me it was the last pair.
Got kinda drama queen and overreacted and thus RR was my trainer for the day.
My sista was kinda pissed at me cause she was late to school(8.05am)
FIRST OF ALL, I don't think its my fault,
I was schooled in the same school as her and I usually leave the house at 6.45-7am and reach school at 7.15-7.20am.
What happened was while we were nearing the junction where it bridge between KL,Puchong,Old Klang Road and PJ,
the ROAD WAS BLOCKED by our dear JPJ workers,
why?
because they wanna tar that part of the road during peak hours(and the road doesn't even have potholes,this is taxpayer money,hello?). How hardworking are our countrymen,eh?
and thus the cars from these places are directed to Taman Medan area and caused a massive jam,
my car was static for 30mins,
there was a traffic police which I think; he thinks the road its a runway for him to model,
hello? Get in shape then we will consider. Sorry, I'm being blunt.
Reached Jaya Park (sounds so weird in English) at 8.10am and woah I saw people doing tai-chi and CHS students training *amazed*
After an hour or so of sweating,
RR dropped me off at my grandparent's place and showered and get ready for breakfast,
He came and picked me up and off we went for our MAKAN SESSION
(honestly, I think I gain more calories than burning calories, you'll find out why)


I had been craving for Nasi Lemak and Ikan Bakar since I came back from Australia,
I had craving for Tong Yuen too if anyone kindly make for me =D
So I heard alot about these Nasi Lemak Tanglin and Pak Din Ikan Bakar,
thus we venture out to downtown KL,
me being an awesome GPS and him being a careful driver,
fyi, we did not get lost most of the time I got my directions right,
honestly two of us didn't know our ways and Google Map wasn't that useful either,
Finally we reached the place and boy was it packed!!!!and it was 10.30am,
mostly from the government workers around,
it's next to Methodist Girls School,
now you know why sometimes the hotline doesn't work.LOL

Anywho,
I don't find the nasi lemak any awesome like how most of Malaysian food bloggers had reviewed. Honestly I think the nasi lemak which cause RM1 taste so much better. But the sambal sotong is good. Beef Liver sambal taste weird to me maybe because I wasn't used to the taste of it. Sambal is not even spicy hot,kinda sweet,not my liking.

Sambal sotong,Beer Liver sambal,one whole egg, 2 slices of cucumber,few nuts and anchovies-TOTAL:RM5.50

fried egg,fried chicken , 3slices of cucumber,few nuts and anchovies and sambal

TOTAL: 4.30

I just realised I did not take a photo of those lovely ikan bakar (we had two) in total rm10. very worth it. Ikan Kembong + Ikan Keli .

It's by far the best Ikan Bakar I had taste in KL,the sauce that comes with it its really thick and aroumatic.

MUST TRY! forget the nasi lemak.

After our breakfast, we decided to go for dessert =)

Headed towards Bangsar,

finding a parking during lunch hour was hell,

luckily we found one.

Had our dessert at Delicious, BV II.

Chocolicious Sundae

Brownies+Vanilla Ice cream

By then, we were bloated,

When for stationery shopping afterwards since college was starting today,

he got a called that his final results were out,

he was freaking out that he wouldn't be able to get more than cGPA3.0,

cause apparently the smartest kid in class scored cGPA3.0,

had to like drill his oh so stubborn brain that everything will be fine,

be opimistic yah di yah dah in short prep talk,

finally when we reached his car,

he got a message from his friend saying he scored more than 3.0,

it's as if the world was never an evil place when he saw the message and those BIG grin splashed across

his face,

so instead of dropping me home,we went to his college.

very modern indeed.

And the official results was going to be out at 4pm,

we were there at 2.30pm,

OMG! practically was stoning and sociallising,

he hangs out with too many girls,

I think I need to brush up my BM,

was rather hard to communicate,

FINALLY got his results,

it was 3.50pm, at first he doesn't wanna go to the bank to get a bank draft cause it was 10mins before the bank closed but in the end after much pestering from me, he finally went and get it.

God is awesome, it was opened =D

Seeing as how busy Section 14 is (where Digital Mall is),

he double parked and I was in the car,

10minutes later,

the car wanted to get out of the parking lot and I was blocking her way,

called that dude and guess what? he left his phone in the car, OMGee.

For those who know me well, I'm not allowed to drive for certain reasons,

and the lady was getting very impatient,

there was a Volvo A4 behind my friend's car,

thus decided to take over the driver's seat and hopefully I don't hit the Volvo,

reversed the car, the Volvo Lady driver was very cooperative as well, she reversed too.phew! pretty sure she doesn't want her A4 to be hit by a P driver.

Finally the Vios lady car came out, That woman ah needs so much space I tell you,

reverse 3 parking lots behind of her parking lot, doubt she's an awesome driver,

I made a perfect inward parking. yeah me!

Went back to his college to pay the fees

drove me home,

since it was raining heavily,

he came in and wrapped one of my college files =D

For a guy, he's very precise, I think its a thing an architecture student has,

for me a wrapper is a wrapper and i just want my files to be wrap in colours,

for him a wrapper is an art,a material and blah blah blah =)

Afterwards,

went dinner with him since he doesn't have dinner at home,

I was driving =D

Finally he trusted me with his car,

was trying to find a parking at this place we were eating,

it's like a Food Emporium not a Food court,

but just a place with lotsa restaurants.

Couldn't find a parking where I could just park inwards,

no choice but to do parallel parking which obviously I had never done before,

guess what?

I made a perfect side parking. =D

with his guidance of course. sigh.

I had dessert again since I will be having dinner at home.

He had NZ lamp chop.

He was too hungry thus no photo to show how yummy it was.

I had cendol, was craving for it somehow.

I feel so malaysian.yeah me!

signing off.

p/s: so tired from first day of college. Juniors look so budak baik.

Calm and Steady win the race

With the recent hoo-haa about arson attacks towards 8 churches in Malaysia,
and I feel like expressing my views or my rants,
so please exit this blog if you do not have an open mind towards this issue,
I don't need virtual firebombs towards my newly born blog,
thank you.


So as of today, nine churches got attacked. I know two of the churches and one of it, is in front of my used to be primary school and the other one is in front of my friend's house. 


What saddens me is that why can't these people use a more diplomatic way to solve this issue thats not even there in the first place. 


First of all, "Allah" is an Arabic word that means God. Christians in Middle East use it to refer to God too. 
One of my close buddy[RR], he's a muslim and he told me that its because the Islam in Middle East are brought up differently from the Islam in Malaysia. They learnt from the root itself.

The term ‘Allah’ was not created by the Islamic God, or Muhammad or any Muslim. The Pagans of Arabia had been using ‘Allah’ to denote ‘God’ for hundreds, probably for thousands, of years before Islam’s birth. This was quoted from islam-watch.org


These culprits are not only making Islam look bad for non-muslim, they are also causing segregation in our community. 

As Martha Stewart would had said
"Without an open-minded mind, you can never be a great success."

The road to a friend’s house is never too long

This would be my first entry and sadly it's about TSMA. [ in short Tali ]


TSMA: site up?
JY: hey how was dinner?
JY: hahaha
JY: its sort of up
JY: with no post
TSMA: hah hah
TSMA: dinner was good
JY: lol duno what to post
JY: hmmmm
Jy: =)
JY: oh well
TSMA:erm
TSMA:post abt how cool i am
TSMA:=)
TSMA:haha
JY:how cool you are
JY:gosh

so here I am trying to post something "cool" about her. 19 reasons why she's so cool. Why 19? cause we're all turning 19 this year. Yes, we're born in the year of Sheep =)

1. She's My lesbian partner.
2. She gives good pleasure. soooo good.
2. If you believed the first two statements, you're silly.
3. She's a hot nerd.
4. Seeing its believing, catch her swimming ;) wanna know where she swims.contact me and I'm happy to tell you.
5. She's going to be the Best lawyer in the future. I kid you not.
6. She's a JPA scholar,which makes her even more appealing that she is already hor.
7. She may look innocent but seriously her mind is not =D
8. Her philosophy "Make love with the books and you'll be stamp nerd"
9. Lame is the new cool.
10.She has a thing for Korean boys. Sadly, my campus is filled with it and not hers. LOL
11.She's tired of asian boys. They don't know how to pleasure girls. Oh well...
12.She went to HK last year alone. How cool is that?
13.Jeez, everything also start with she.
14.TSMA driving can be scary at times but survivable. Better than Mine=D
15.Home loving child.
16.Hates pink.funny how she doesn't hate me since I adore pink. or she secretly does? hrmmm...
17.Tali gonna fly to Kangaroo Land next year. Probably have more reasons for me to fly down under now. hee
18. She's a virgin.
19.I will try to make it PG-13 next time. =)